I, Alone

You can't look out for me, as I do you.
You may start out, but can't carry it through.
To think, I fell in love with you for that--
the one person who would always love me back.

But, it all continues...
Expectations of me are high. Taking from me is with ease.
Yet, no one recognizes that I can't always play the lead.

No one can be that strong. I must be allowed to feel,
but some how everyone's decided that's not part of the deal.

Don't half-ass it. Just don't do it at all
because the bottom line is that you half-try and you fall!
Yet try, I have to, because I have to continue to do.
Yesterday; today; tomorrow; How dare I ask the same of you!?

I, alone;
it's been that way for years.
Little did I know,
those were preliminary tears!

I, alone;
it shall always be.
So, maybe, I, alone,
should involve only me!

June 2, 2000