Broken Vows

On the grounds that, No, it doesn't matter how it affects me...

On the grounds that he can hurt me so intensely,
that as he stands in my face, mocking me;
crumpling my heart;
I could succumb to physical reaction and push him.


Meanwhile, on the grounds that
he could continue to both mock me,
and try to extract further reaction from me,
after this display of idiocy...

One these grounds, I come to the conclusion
that he does not respect me.
On these grounds, I come to the conclusion
that he is not doing his best to communicate with me.

On these grounds, I come to the conclusion
that he is not only NOT loyal to me, but
NOT loyal to my wants and needs.
On these grounds, I come to the conclusion
that he will continue NOT to do these things
as long as we both shall live.
On these grounds, I come to the conclusion
that the two flames do not burn as one.

On these grounds, I come to the conlclusion
that this marriage is not in sanction with its vows,
and is therefore null and void.

January 13, 1997

Up Alone

So, I sit here and try to determine
what exactly it is that I feel.
What is the whirlwind of pain
and anger and embarrassment?

I know I'm not in the right,
but,
I know I'm not in the wrong.

Destroyed that he could find
contentment when I feel like this.
Exhausted, as is he, from tredding
in the same pool of water
we've tred in
so many times before.

January 13, 1997