A Dim Light Shines

Like the prey of a spider,
I am struggling to escape the fibers;
weakened, by captivation within the web.
Meanwhile, so suddenly, aware of what lies ahead.

I was swimming in transition--
a lone branch in unfamiliar waters,
pushed along by the current;
destination unknown.

Praying for the tepid lake;
fearing relentless rapids;
anticipating roaring falls;

and then came you...

Unlike stones at my feet and sticks floating by;
more than mere driftwood;

In my darkness, a dim light shines.

Still so many ripples of emotion to work through;
still treading; striving to keep my head above the water;

Your face rests in a glow.
Your eyes--windows to a land of smiles--
their amazing blue; a reflection of that tepid lake;
their incredible sparkle; a notion of enlightment.
Both the hurt and the happiness deep within;
a tingling in my heart;

Your smile--a promise of tomorrow;
nothing like the warmth in your arms;
I look up at you, filled with intensity.
I want you. I need you to care for me.
Hold me; touch me; shelter me from harm.

Never go the other way,
but come closer and hold me tight.
Not sometimes,
but always...

And, I will, in return,
give every ounce of my being;
dry your tears; help face your fears;
listen to your thoughts; help you grieve loss;
hold you tight; warm your nights;
help you acquire possessions; help you through life's lessons;
share ups and downs; share smiles and frowns;
gain from experience with you; stand behind each thing you do;
appreciate that which you give; make worthwhile each day you live.

No map has led me to such treasure,
though buried you might have been,
and we both benefit from this find--
an invaluable gift to win!

My love, you may not see it,
as fear consumes your soul,
and my longing for touch; for affection
is time collecting toll.

I think of your kindness
and I am flooded with love for you.
I look downstream and I know,
together we can sail.

And, in my darkness, a dim light shines.

July 1998